Secrets

I really wish I took the time to write more on this blog. Just my thoughts and my prayers, the things the Lord lays on my heart. I have a hard enough time writing in a journal...I don't know how I ever thought I would keep up with a blog, even once a week.

The Lord has really been showing me the differences in his children. When you look around you can see perfectly clearly how different each person looks, and you find how different personalities are as well. But what strikes me so much is how different each persons understanding and relationship with the Lord is. We all have such different encounters and experiences with the Lord. Sometimes I hate how hard it is to convey those things to others--to really express my heart in my experiences. I guess those things are just for the Lord...to keep a secret between myself and him. I think he likes it that way, having secrets with us. You always feel special when you know a secret.

It's Lost It's Meaning

Tonight I was in Boarders. I moved around a lot while I was in there, but eventually took a seat in one of the "comfy" chairs. I was looking around as I prayed and the sign on the bookshelf caught my eye. It was a directional sign that pointed you in the right direction depending on the topic of book you wanted. To the left it said Memoirs. To the right it started with Psychology. Under that was Child Psychology. Below that it said "Marriage & Divorce" on the same line. Like it was saying that these two subjects should go together. It's so interesting to think that something as sacred and holy as marriage would even be considered a source of the same thing, let along the same category. Sad how marriage has diminished so much in its significant meaning and commitment.

The Death Challenge

God challenges me in many ways.

Death has been the most recent challenge. It really makes you think, doesn't it? I mean, here I have lost my 44 year old uncle to cancer. He has been fighting for 3 years and one day it just slips out of control and then he is gone.

Then, in the midst of all of the chaos that is happening, all my heart can do is worship my Lord and savior and thank him for his complete and utter Faithfulness! Sometimes God asks you to share things you don't want to with people who may not understand.

Because of God's faithfulness, we can't deny what He is asking us to do. So we do the absolute last thing we want and allow God to use the vessel he has created us to be in order to speak his truth. And it isn't always pretty. But, God's love is shown through it.

Now all that is left to do is keep praying for heart change. He is so faithful.

Knock, Knock

Knock and the door will be opened to you.

Don't just knock and walk away, knock and wait. Know and continue seeking. You don't know when the door will open or what will be on the other side. But you can't expect to find if you can't even be patient enough to wait.

Emotional Passion

A feeling can be almost any subjective reaction or state that is characterized by an emotional response


An emotion is a natural instinctive state of mind deriving from one's circumstances, mood, or relationship with others


Passion suggests a powerful or overwhelming emotion

Is your passion in Christ, or in people??